And The World Turned Upside Down.

when things grow and contort into massive things that fathom my mind,
i delve back to my world.
full of hope and wonder.
and for some reason,
i'm a child again.

i can literally see myself.
playing and running with a strange person next to me.
he's wearing white.
yet i cannot seem to see his face.
but the younger version of me is laughing, and smiling so big.
squealing "Daddy."

Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And everything you do
Yeah, it was all yellow

i felt discombobulated.
i didn't understand why in this world, i was a little kid.
then it dawned on me,
like the infinite rising of the sun.
"this was before."
back when life was at it's peak.
untarnished.
and left alone.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love something but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

i watch her, i watch me.
young and full of promise.
i see her playing, and being so beautiful for her father.
her Daddy.
the child is completely happy.
completely untouched.
completely innocent.
and the door to her heart is wide open.
unlike mine.

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
I will try to fix you

all i want to do is take her.
the younger me, and hold her in my arms.
i want to protect her from the harshness,
and the pain.
and the struggles.

i see myself take her, and her Father backs away slowly.
towards the light over the hills,
and i watch him disappear.
she willfully jumps into my arms,
smiling one of the biggest smiles.
i can't help but return one.
yet the tears keep coming.

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you try, you'll never know
Just what you're worth

i soak her cute flowing white dress.
clinging to her, to me, like if i let go,
i would collapse.
as hard as i'm squeezing her, she hugs back with just as much force.
it doesn't feel like i'm protecting her.
but like i need her.
the child-like, the innocent,
the open part of me.

Confusion never stops
Closing walls and ticking clocks
Gonna come back and take you home
I could not stop that you now know, singing

You Are
and nothing else compares

i could never forget,
stepping into that world of mine,
and holding her.
yet, what struck me...
was even with all the wisdom i thought i had possessed,
my child version was wiser.
stronger.
instead of holding her, she held me.
and said:

"don't worry. i've got you, and you've got me.
we're together, you see?"

and the rest was left in her smile.

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I
will try to fix you

with love and light,
eve morgan