Run Forrest, Run.

the gym.
a great place to work out, to build up strength and to make yourself proud and worthy.
the gym creates a lot of opportunities: to build up stamina and strength, the enjoyment of buying new work out clothes, and maybe flirting with a good looking stranger once in a while.

i like the gym. i like the comfort of being able to walk in, sweat and have your face be bright red and nobody would care. no one would think that you didn't look one hundred percent because they know they don't look one hundred percent either.
that's why people join gyms, that's why they go. to look better. to feel better.
maybe there are different reasons why anyone goes to the gym. maybe they go so that they can impress this certain other, or that maybe they have to lose a couple pounds so they can stay on a certain sports team.
or maybe they have to just focus on their body instead of focusing on their mind.

i want to join a gym. i want to learn how to take care of not just my brain, but my body. i'd like to know how it feels to actually be in shape, to know what its like to still be ready for more after a three mile run. i want to feel the strength building up in my legs when they move, and feel a certain back ache after a good workout.
however, that's not everything.

sometimes i wish that for one second that i can maybe not think. not because i have so many intellectual thoughts that i want to stray away from, but just the fact that i need a shutdown. it's too much wiring going on, and the gears and cranks that power my brain to think has been going on for too long and way too fast.

running helps. it really does. running's probably not for everyone; every person probably has a different way or technique to set their mind free.
running takes away everything for me. i stop thinking and stop worrying; i just stop. in that moment when my legs move quicker than normal, all that happens is how fast i go and how far i travel. i don't think about my problems or memories, i don't think about boys i like or have liked, or fights with friends, or issues with family.
i don't think.

honestly, it's healthy to just take yourself out of your head.
 
that is why i want to join a gym.

with love and light,
eve morgan