The Balance Beam.

i used to think that everything came with a price. that no matter what you did, it would always end up the same: holding nothing and regretting what wasn't savored.
everything has consequences, that is truth. but no one realizes that it isn't the consequences, but it's how you deal with it, and how you come to fix what you have broken.

everything has a balance.

i had always been taught that i had to watch my step, be careful of what's around me, because if i wasn't aware that life would come and bite me in the ass.
no one ever gave me lessons about balance. no one told me that you don't have to drown in your mistakes, or over-think everything that doesn't or might not go smoothly.
i can't believe i didn't know this as a kid. maybe things could be different if i didn't worry about every little thing, or freak out about something that probably never could happen.

but i guess that's what fear is.
fear of the unknown.
terror of what'll happen in the future. what changes may happen.

i hate change.
a lot.
so much in fact, that whenever there's any change happening at all, i reject it with all that i've got. and that never works out in my favor.

change is good sometimes.
because what i have come to realize, is that with change...
there's a balance.

so stop denying yourself of new things. of change.
don't stand on the edge of the beam.
go into the middle.

because that's where the balance is.

with love and light,
eve morgan