Wings.

i want to fly
can you take me far away
give me a star to reach for
tell me what it takes

i stand here alone.
my own two feet,
in these leather boots.
i look out, wondering about everyone i knew.
everyone i met.
i wonder where they are now,
and as names pass through my mind like falling leaves in winter,
i wonder,
has my name ever been in someone else's tree?

i feel alone for the very first time in a long time.
and right now, today,
it's different.
it doesn't feel like a bad thing.
it's something that forces me to learn.
learn about life,
about love,
about capacity,
and about strength.

i'm stronger from the events that have come to pass.
and i know that.
even in the struggles and the attempts to fulfill a day,
i know who i am.

"i know that you're lonely, and that you want him to instill value in your life temporarily, but don't."

excuse me?
nobody can define who i am and how i feel.
especially not you.
i just find it funny that from a couple months, you make assumptions,
that you find to be truth.
you never even consider the other option.
and i guess i kinda understand that.

but assumptions lead to judgment.
and dear, i really don't need any more of that right now.

i want to fly
can you take me far away
give me a star to reach for
tell me what it takes
and i'll go so high
i'll go so high
my feet won't touch the ground
stitch my wings
and pull the strings

i'm trying so hard to just forget.
to just cut out that year of my life,
and move on.
but that just falls into a category of regret.
and honey, i don't regret anything.
you of all people should know that.

my decisions are my own.
no one can tell me different.
so that's where my respect for others come in.
because i cannot do anything to change their choices.
or their decisions.
it's not my job.
my job is to be around in spite of those decisions.
maybe to influence those choices, but not to judge them.

that's the difference between her and me.
that's why i get support.

i need to focus on what makes me happy.
but man, i need a rest.
this is exhausting my engine,
and i still need to drive down this road.
because there is no turning back.

change is my worst fear.
but i'm driving headlong into it.
shouldn't you?

i want to fly
can you take me far away
give me a star to reach for
tell me what it takes
and i'll go so high
i'll go so high
my feet won't touch the ground
stitch my wings
and pull the strings
i bought these dreams
that all fall down

i bought these dreams
that all fall down.