Infinite Ties.

i never wanted to let go.
holding your hands so tight, afraid that i was going to break your fingers.
i couldn't help the slipping tears,
falling onto
our non-breaking bond.

i heard the steps clacking on the concrete,
as mine clicked on the brick.
i didn't want to listen,
i wanted to run back.
i wanted you to take me in that beat up car,
and just drive until we hit day.

words mean more at night
like a song
and did you ever notice
the way light means more than it did all day long?

i woke up the next day with an empty feeling in my gut.
like a black hole was created in my chest,
right after you exited my reach.
i looked left, right.
alone in this foreign land that i'm forced to call home.

the only time it felt familiar was with you in it.
and without, it was just like the first day.
anxiety creeping in like a stranger,
and shaking,
something that i know when i'm scared.

i don't know whether seeing you that day made it better or made it worse.
because i was so entranced by your smile,
and so moved by your lips,
i forgot to remember that soon, you wouldn't arrive again.
at least,
not for a little while.

words mean more at night
light means more
like your hair and your face and your smile
and our bed and the dress that you wore

he's right, words do mean more at night.
and the light isn't just me.
you think that i'm special, that out of the both of us,
i'm the one that should be favored and deserving.
but that's not completely true.

i don't think i could even walk without your kindness beside me.
i couldn't laugh without your jokes, or without your smile.
there would be no thought without your interesting opinions.
everything about you is fascinating to me;
and you treat me like a princess everyday.

more than anyone ever has.

and i wish i could leave my bones and my skin
and float over the tired, tired sea
so that i could see you again

i'm trying to find a time in my life that was important before this.
before the whole existence of you.
but i can't.
not just in the romantic sense either.

conversations had never been easier.
and i was never scared to cry,
or tell you my darkest secrets.

sometimes you think that i don't tell you everything,
but everything i say to you is more than what i say to others.
the content might be short, but the meaning is pages and pages long.
with everybody else, it's just banter.
with you, it's about my dreams. it's about my wants and my passions.
it's about me; not the things that revolve around the world.

and that's important for you to know.
because someone i love deserves to know everything and anything about me.

so i'll send you my words
from the corners of my room
and though i write them by the light of day
please read them by the light of the moon

i'm going to begin writing to you personally.
with a postman and everything.
because that is showing how much i care.
not this.
this is just how i feel.
but i want to show you how i feel.

so just wait.
one's coming soon.

maybe you would leave too
and we'll blindly pass each other
floating over the ocean blue
just to find the warm bed of our lover

so i'll send you my words
from the corners of my room
and though i write them by the light of day
please read them by the light of the moon