Exhaustion.

my body needs a rest.
a long long rest.
but my brain decides that it's always running, that it'll never stop spinning, turning, whirring. my brain never sleeps. neither does my mind.
yes. a brain and someone's mind are two different things.

the mind is a weird thing. an unexpected part of the human body, the part that makes someone who they are. makes them different from people; if you don't count different physical features.
everyone also has a different way of molding their mind, and evolving from a child into an adult. we never stop perfecting our thoughts, and they may change frequently with time. and yet, some try quite hard to keep their points of view the same.
that gets under my skin.

i guess that's what happens when you're struggling with self-control.
it takes skill to have self control. to persevere. to be okay with things even if you don't agree. what you need to keep in mind though, is to lose it a little bit at a time.
when things build up and you don't release anything, ever... instead of gently unlocking the gate, it'll be forced open; leaving everything you kept inside to be made to the public.
that's pretty much the definition of a break down or mental instability.

let yourself go now and again. let yourself be angry. upset.
scream at the top of your lungs! punch something, swear. just let some emotions out instead of playing the act of a robot, or just someone cool.
trust me. NO ONE is that cool and calm. ever.

it's okay to be a human once in a while.
it's okay to make mistakes.

don't be afraid to make one.

with love and light,
eve morgan