Letting Go.

you and i were meant to be
ain't no doubt about it
no way to hide that sort of thing
not waiting for something better
ain't nothing better worth imagining

being home for a month has been very...
interesting.
that's a word i use when i don't really know how to explain
how i feel about the subject.

summer so far has had it's ups and downs.
yet, with all the happy thoughts
i feel like i'm stuck in this tiny pool
struggling to keep afloat
all the while, you or anyone else
is pointing at me and laughing
before jumping into the endless sea.

san francisco was my endless sea.
and when i am easily thrown
back into this pool of you
this pool of "small town"
i struggle, even though only a little less than a year ago
i was content
and weightless.

i keep on running
i'm building bridges that i know you never wanted
look for my heart
you stole it away

listen, i want you to burn my bridges down
i said, i want you to burn my bridges down

i don't want to stand on the bridge waiting for you anymore.
you've pointed out to me more times than not that you won't make it,
that this fire i carry around
isn't worth staying lit.
it should have been put out long ago.

set me on fire

send this out to sea
send it where you wanted
you can take it no for no or not at all
there's no filling up your spaces with fictionary places
imaginary faces, they don't work at all

i need to stop living by memories.
but should live by moments
because in a life
that's all we keep precious anyway.
no one really remembers every
bit
and piece
and chunks
that make up your life.

i want to remember the things that put smiles on my face,
not things that make my eyes water.
not memories that will torment me,
or hope that will keep getting beaten and pushed around,
until i'm not strong enough to stand.

i know i'm strong enough to get back up.
and the more and more i think of you,
the more i know that you won't even fight.
because you don't even wish to be stronger
or even brave enough
to face your problems head on.

as the ticking clock tocks and ticks,
the more i know that to be true.
and it just makes me realize

i'm a lot stronger than you.

and that's what gets me back up.

i want you to burn my bridges down
i said, i want you to burn my bridges down
set me on fire

eve morgan.