Jane & Alexander.

a couple weeks ago, i had to walk home.
i took the trail, wearing my flannel, and snapped my headphones in.
even with the bad day,
the stress and the annoyances of early on,
i still took the road, step by step in vans,
calming myself with the voice of israel nebeker,
and the wind blowing through the trees.

alabama, arkansas
i do love my ma and pa,
but not the way that i do love you

hold moley, me o my
you're the apple of my eye
girl, i've never loved one like you

i thought a lot on that walk alone.
what's been going on,
what i have to do, and who will reap the rewards,
and who will suffer with the consequences.
i thought about who was in my life.
and how i would do anything to keep some of them,
while i would simply let others slip away.

i tried to calm my mind from whirling thoughts,
as i watched the whirlwinds with the leaves.
i checked my surrounding and felt detached.
i didn't feel my feet moving on the earth,
and i just watched and listened,
without so much as a sound from my lips.

man oh man, you're my best friend
i'll scream it to the nothingness
there ain't nothin' that i need

well, hot and heavy, pumpkin pie
chocolate candy, jesus christ
there ain't nothing please me more than you

my life is changing.
faster and crazier than i could have anticipated.
i'm not sure whether i can track back,
and think to how i got here.

i've never thought that change could just be held within one.
one person.
or thing,
or day.
i just thought that it was a never ending cycle,
that just popped up again and again.
i never knew change would barrel through just one,
and take my world over,
creating something completely different.

we laugh until we think we die
barefoot on a summer night
nothin' new is sweeter than with you

and in the streets we're running free
like it's only you and me
geez, you're something to see

so when i finally made my way down that trail,
down that road,
i made up my mind.
i made it up to follow what i knew,
to trust what i was afraid to trust,
and to leave what i knew would break me.

i opened the gate and it did not budge.
so i went around the corner,
with my mind still pulling loops and my legs aching,
i went to the red door.
and pulled.

ahh, home
let me come home
home is wherever i'm with you

ahh, home
yes, i am home
home is when i'm alone with you

with love and light,
eve morgan