you have amazing eyes
the right one's suspicious and the left one
wants my love
i don't care what you think i've done
i know i never meant no harm to anyone
i know i never meant no harm at all
i knew that the balance would eventually be uneven.
i didn't think it would happen this quickly, however.
but life doesn't stop, it never does.
no matter how much i wish it to.
i would consider myself a nostalgic person.
i mean, hell, i'm putting up pictures on my wall of my friends, myself and places i've been.
and because of recent up-comings, i really want to rip the wall down.
not that i don't love the people in those photographs,
i just don't want to be reminded anymore.
is it wrong or only half right?
you want me gone, but i stay the night
when i see you in the half light
it feels so fine
everybody seems to wonder why
but i go back to you every time
i feel like i care too much.
and that's why now it's extremely important to me who is in my life.
whom i choose to stay and whom i let go.
because many a time before,
the ones i love left.
and i couldn't even predict, nor did i ever know.
that someone so special,
could just slip through your fingers like silk.
or like running water.
i've been reminded recently about someone with a big impact.
one that has changed my perspective on things like the world,
or the sense of responsibility,
and also parts of my sense of humor.
it's been a long time.
and that person that i spent so much time thinking about and worrying about and caring about,
isn't here anymore.
not that he's just in a different destination,
but that so much change has waved over him,
waved over me,
the soul i've grown to know so well,
is either succumbed so far into this shell that is your face now,
or it's disappeared entirely.
replaced with a similar, yet completely different you.
you have amazing eyes
the right one's suspicious and the left one wants my love
you know, i never meant no harm at all
change is everywhere, and i'm very aware of that.
but naivety comes into play here.
i did not expect to still feel.
but at the same time,
i knew i always would care. and you knew that too.
that's why you disappeared.
and left me here - the unwanted girl.
the girl who cared to much about others.
and too much about you.
but see, you are misreading me.
i don't care about you.
i care about the one i knew before.
and i worry now and react now,
because you hold his face.
and i'm really hoping, really praying,
that the one i know is still inside.
because i can handle the leaving.
i can handle the girl that holds my former title.
but the knowledge that whom i loved is gone..
that's just like handling death.
and i've never been good with that.
so do me a favor,
and don't be dead.
you're a bit broken and i'm a bit broken
i don't care what you think i've done
cuz i never meant no harm at all
no, i never meant no harm to anyone
this is a post about a girl who cares too much.
yet,
although you're different,
so am i.
because i don't want to care anymore.
and that wish has never before surfaced,
but because of you, the tipping point, it has.
no fucks given.
